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Communism was just a red herring. [Oct. 23rd, 2011|08:40 pm]
[Current Location |Canberra]
[mood |okayokay]

So, since I won't be posting here again for like a month, I'd like to at least wish both Ree and Nanook a happy birthday.

Got nothing really new to report. Been playing a lot of XBox... that's about it.

I have come up with literally tens of ideas for short stories, but haven't even began to write them, as I don't feel I have the ability to pull them off well. Honestly, I should just get down to it and start writing and not care how it turns out. At least it'll get me back into writing.

At the moment, I find myself watching "Once Upon A Time", the new TV series. It kind of reminds me of the series of "graphic novels", Fables, but less good.

Oh, and in case you're ignorant, the subject line refers to the movie, "Clue". Watch it. I'm going to. Again. I just put it on hold at the library. Tim Curry and Christopher Lloyd are in it.

(By the way, I'm not actually in the capital of Australia. Yeah, bet you thought it was Sydney. Well, you're wrong. WRONG!)
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Open Letter to the Internet [Jan. 30th, 2011|07:58 pm]
[Current Location |Mom's]
[music |Does New Super Mario Bros. Wii count?]

Dear Internet,
Fuck you.
You keep your Goddamn dirty hands the fuck off the English language. I'll grant you some leniency on technical terms, but some of the shit I've seen or heard is just plain stupid.
Let me tell you a story. I was just innocently watching the TV when a phone commercial brought to my attention the fact that you douchebags are now using Facebook as a verb. Cut that shit the fuck out. It's hard enough trying to deny the existence of Facebook without you fucktards throwing it into my perfectly innocent language in places it shouldn't fucking be.
Look, dipshits, proper nouns are not fucking verbs. If you want to turn Facebook into invective or a vulgar intensifier, then go right ahead. Don't let me Facebooking stop you, you fucking Facebooks, but it's not a verb. If someone wipes their nose with a Kleenex brand facial tissue, they do not Kleenex their nose. And don't start using that just to prove me wrong. That would be really juvenile of you, Internet.
And Twitter? Well, that's just contributing to the further denigration and deterioration of the English language. By imposing a character limit on tweets, Twitter forces people to use abbreviations for things which work perfectly fine without abbreviations. A few Internet abbreviations are fine, as they emerged not from a need for brevity, but from a need for speed. Unnecessary brevity is the enemy of language.
A character limit could normally be fine if people weren't trying to communicate complex ideas on Twitter. But when someone abbreviates a 3-letter word with an homophonous number or letter, things have seriously gone wrong. You know what's worse? Abbreviating "to" as "2" or "be" as "B". Congratulations! You saved one Goddamn character.
So come on, Internet, smarten the fuck up. I could've sworn there were dictionaries on the Internet. Try using them.
Lovingly bashing your heads in with a brick,
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Holy assing emo crap! [Aug. 1st, 2009|04:18 pm]
[mood |blahblah]

I found out that today my grandfather had to go to the hospital. Luckily, it looks as though he's going to be fine; it's just an infection, but it still hit me pretty damn hard. And right now, I really have no one I can talk to about that kind of thing.

I've realized in the past few of months that I really am far too co-dependent. Especially today. I found out about a huge change that hit me really hard and realized that I am not as independent as I thought I had been in the past month. I need to fix that. I really do. And it's not something that anyone can help me deal with, as I'll just become dependent on whomever it was that helped me.

Today's just really not the best day for me.

I know, this post was pretty emo, albeit somewhat veiled. I try to avoid that kind of thing, but sometimes it just can't be helped.

To add some non-emo, I recently started running Star Wars again after we decided to give Exalted a break. I've been extremely creatively dry lately (which may be tied to events mentioned in certain previous posts, but I'm not sure), so I've been unable to come up with any ideas for anything. I've been unable to write, compose, come up with adventure ideas, or even come up with titles for things that have already been written. At least I'm motivated enough to play video games again, but that's not really the kind of motivation I need, is it?

Hopefully the creative desert passes with the running of not-taken-seriously Star Wars gaming and I become able to actually do things again. If not, then I need to get my ass out and find a new muse. Or at least make some new friends. My slowly decreasing circle of friends just isn't cutting it as much anymore. At least Nanook opted not to move to BC if his parents move. So that's good.

Oh yeah, and my birthday is fast approaching (but only if you define "fast approaching" as "in two months"). I'll likely be spending it hanging out with the guys again, so that'll be fun. At least I've got something to look forward to in the near future. (If you define "near future" as "two months from now.")

And I started typing "future" a little early when I added it after that second near, so it almost read "nea futurer". I totally have to start saying that now.

Oh, and the finger injury that I suffered a month ago (and few people knew about) is finally almost healed. Still a little tingly and painy if I hit it in just the right spot, but hopefully I'm smart enough to avoid hitting it in that spot a lot.
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I can has motivation? [May. 16th, 2009|11:45 pm]
[Current Location |Agra]
[mood |happyhappy]

Apparently not.

I seem to be completely drained of motivation lately. I can't even bring myself to finish things in video games. That's just weird.

Of course, seeing as I'll be getting Raidou Kuzunoha vs. King Abaddon in like 5 days, I'll just not allow myself to play it until I get work done on correspondence, room-cleaning, actually preparing for running Exalted sometime before 1 hour before we actually game and anything else I feel I have to work on.

Also, I may be giving someone a call in the near future, just to say hi and see how things are going with her.

(Please Note: I am not actually in Agra.)
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Woo! The zombie game is done! On to Exalted! [Mar. 21st, 2009|09:24 pm]
As the subject clearly states, we're going to be starting Exalted next week, and I already have plenty ideas for how I'm going to start it, then run it from there. I'm rather excited to give the system a try.

I don't have much else to report, other than my complete and utter failure to be able to write an autobiographical account of a significant moment in my own life for correspondence, mostly due to the inability to remember any significant moments in my life that I don't feel are too personal to write for a school report.

Hell, I figure I'll just make something up. It's not like they'll know, as long as I don't make something up that's too outlandish.

...for instance!:

So Superman and I flew into space, where we saved Earth from yet another asteroid by pushing the planet safely out of the way of the approaching space boulder. Of course, this doomed the Earth to eventually spiral into the sun where it will be instantly burnt in a giant nuclear furnace, but in the meantime only causes drastic climate changes. That's right, Superman and I caused global warming.

As long as I don't write something like the above paragraph, I should have no problem. I just have to make sure it actually stars me, though.
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(no subject) [Feb. 28th, 2009|12:24 pm]
OK, first of all, I just have to say this: I love the ATLUS USA newsletter. This excerpt alone should tell you why I love it so much:
"Our census data indicates that given the choice between only a game, and a better-packaged game with a free bonus soundtrack, a significant number of our fans seem to prefer getting free extras," analyzed Aram Jabbari, Manager of Public Relations and Sales. "We don't want to rush to any conclusions here, but it seems possible that people enjoy free bonus things along with their games. Hopefully, we're actually reading the data correctly this time, unlike that study on whether or not our fans enjoyed bonus live scorpions with their games. We really blew it on that one, and we apologize to those affected."

Secondly, I fucking hate you Atlus. You and NIS are conspiring to make me get a PSP. First NIS announces the Disgaea spinoff featuring a Prinny as the main character, and now Atlus has announced that they're bringing a proper re-translation of Persona 1 to the PSP. How dare you! You jerks are making me want a crappy handheld system just for 2 games. The various games Square-Enix have released for the PSP tempted me slightly, but this blow from Atlus and NIS is almost too much. Damn you! Damn you all to hell!

Lastly, my dad took a nosedive into the table yesterday and cut his nose open. He said it was due to falling asleep while leaning on the table, and I honestly do believe that is what happened, but it still frightens me a bit. Jess and I had to help him up (but I'm Weaky McWeakerton, so it's a good thing yesterday was game night and Paul was there to help) and we eventually got him sitting on the couch and made sure he was all right. He was still a bit put off by it today, so mom had to drive Jess to the library, but it looks as though he's going to be fine.

Edit: Somehow, I managed to spell featuring incorrectly.
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(no subject) [Dec. 13th, 2008|03:16 pm]
[mood |angryangry]

If she really thinks I'm giving up that fucking easily, she must be out of her fucking mind. Christ, she hasn't even given me a plausible, irrefutable reason for why she's decided to stop being my friend. Not to mention I still owe her $30 and have her book, and she's still got one of my mom's books, as far as I know.

I originally had something else here that was motivated by anger. I've removed it. I was just really frustrated because I lost all of the downloads I had started at mom's when she took her computer in to get fixed. Now I get to start all of them all over again.
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Not much of importance... [Nov. 15th, 2008|05:49 pm]
Not much going on right now. I've been procrastinating a crapload on cleaning the computer room and my room, we've moved game to Friday plus Tom's back gaming with us, and the situation alluded to in the previous two posts has still not been resolved. I'm done with patience, and I'm attempting politeness at this point. If that fails, I'll just have to move on to bloody-minded persistence. After all, if I can't get the most important person in my life back in my life, then I can't accomplish anything.

Also, since I haven't been on the internets in like three weeks, I shall take this opportunity to wish both Nanook and Ree a very belated happy birthday. Not that Nanook reads livejournals. >_> <_<
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(no subject) [Oct. 21st, 2008|03:18 pm]
[mood |contentcontent]

Things have gotten a touch better. We're gaming again. It turns out that Eric has been unemployed for a while so not gaming due to work schedules essentially became moot. Well, apart from Tom still not being able to make it most of the time, but he usually calls Paul if he's free on a certain day, and that usually works.

Still haven't managed to get in touch with the friend mentioned in the previous post and talk things out with her, but I hope to do so soon.
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(no subject) [Oct. 8th, 2008|10:11 am]
[Current Location |Hamilton]
[mood |miserable]

I am trying as hard as I can not to explode right now. I am also trying extremely hard not to just air my problems with a friend on the internets without talking to her about it first, because I just don't think that's the best way to go about things.

I actually had a pretty good birthday. Spent it with Nanook playing Rock Band 2. Then he bought me a game. Oh, and gave me a cold... the bastard.

We also haven't been gaming recently due to everyone's work schedules conflicting in some way.

Now on to the more important stuff:

I've been contemplating the idea of correspondence to finish the two or three English credits I need to graduate high school. I've even filled out the form needed to apply for one of the English courses except for the payment information (and the check box asking me whether I want the people offering correspondence to issue the diploma or whether I would prefer my old high school to do so. I don't think it matters either way). Unfortunately, the aforementioned friend was the one who said she'd pay for it (Presumably, I would have to pay her back at some point) and right now, I don't think she's speaking to me.

I've also been lackadaisically attempting to find a job. Granted, there aren't many places in Dundas that are hiring and even fewer that would hire someone who doesn't have a high school education. If you add the fact that I'm incredibly shy in to the mix, you can see where I run into problems.

I've been attempting to work on the shyness. I don't just curl up into a mental foetal position whenever someone I don't know talks to me anymore, which is a good start, but I wouldn't have been able to get as far as I have without the support of the aforementioned friend. Perhaps I do rely to much on her support, but it works. Since she stopped speaking to me, however, I've simply lapsed further into the apathy that prevails in my temperament.

I hate that about myself. I honestly want to fucking change. But for whatever reason, I don't seem able to do so without her help. Despite whatever illusions I may project to the contrary, I honestly hate the way my life is right now. I don't mind that I don't really have that many friends. I'd honestly prefer to just have a few close friends than a lot of people I'd have to manage my time around. On the personality front, however, I know I could do a hell of a lot better. I know the aforementioned friend is willing to help me, but all that ends up happening is she tends to get frustrated at my slow (so slow it seems as though nothing is changing at all) progress and gives up. I'm not blaming her for doing so, though. Anyone would get frustrated with how long it takes me to change. I'm fucking frustrated with how long it takes me to change.

I want to change. I want to get a job. I want to graduate high school. Right now, I don't care whether or not I get in a relationship anytime in the near future, but it might be nice sometime down the road once I've got a job. I honestly don't want to be in any kind of relationship where I have to rely entirely on someone else's finances, whether it be a girlfriend relationship, or just a friendship. But right now, I need that in order to help me get on my own damn feet.

I need to take charge of my life, but I'm too much of a fucking coward to do it alone.

On a completely unrelated side note, I love how when I simply type "Hamilton" as the location, the little pop-up map shows me as being in Scotland. That's awesome.
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